The Waiting Game

So I'm stuck in the waiting game. What a huge loss of control the last few weeks of pregnancy is! I mean pregnancy itself is just this major transition time, but towards the end when you realize you have absolutly no control of when this baby may decide to show up....wow, that is loss of control! I mean whether I'm driving Chad in to work in the morning, washing dishes, going for a walk, having people in, doing the regular typing for work...I never know, could this be the day? Sometimes I wonder if Baby B is ever going to come, then I think, oh my gosh we're going to have a baby and be PARENTS! We can't be parents! We're not mature enough to be parents (everyone assures me we're definilty old enough, so I guess it's the maturity issue that is bigger!) We're too selfish to be parents! Is it a boy? is it a girl? It he or she healthy? Will he or she be happy? So much not knowing! It's freaky, but it's exciting! You're not sure you can do it, yet you're ready--bring it on!

So what do we do with all this going on swirling around inside our minds? we wait...we wait because the nursery is ready, the house is clean, the bags are packed and waiting at the door, 78 servings of food are frozen and waiting in the freezer, grandparents are waiting for the phone to ring...we wait knowing that we have no control over when our lives are going to suddenly and unimaginably take this drastic and dramatic change forever.

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving was just what the doctor ordered for me! Honestly I was getting really close to the end of myself. People don't realize that attending church all day on Sunday, and running into people we know everywhere we go in Fredericton day in and day out and having them rub the belly, feel the belly, ask the same questions, comment on how massive you are, everyone needing a piece of you, it can really REALLY get to a person. Why anyone would ever think it was a good idea to ever comment on how "HUGE" a person was, pregnant or non, I really have no clue but for some reason pregnancy gives people amazing allowances in their minds for being rude! I've really thought about writing a book, maybe a handbook for pregnant women to give out "Things not to say to Pregnant Women". I recognize that I probably get more of it than maybe the average pregnant lady because we know so many people, but REALLY, it's a bit much! Could make the best person seriously contemplate hermithood!

So like I was saying, Thanksgiving couldn't come quick enough. Chad has been so busy with work, it seems he really hasn't stopped since the Easter rush began last year, that he was able to take 2 extra days. So Thursday we went to our doctors appointment and did a few errands in town before heading out to Moncton. Arriving in Moncton we did a little shopping and I got some pj's for the hospital and then we met Mom & Dad for supper at Heinz's Restaurant (where they make GREAT milkshakes!). Mom was very excited because for a week she'd been teasing me with some suprise she had for me. But of course she made me wait until after supper, we drove all the way to Elgin and got home!

She & Dad had bought me an early birthday/just because gift. She'd been concerned as the weather was getting colder that I was going to freeze as most of my clothes don't fit so well right now (for some reason ;)) Anyway, they bought me this gorgeous coat/cape thing. It isn't necesarily a maternity coat, but because of the way it is made I can wear it now and after Baby B is born. I LOVE it! It's neat and different and I was due a dressier coat anyway.

Friday we slept in. In the mountains of Elgin, it is so quiet, and there is little to do, so we slept, much needed sleep too! When I finally did get up I had a long bath in Mom and Dad's jacuzzi tub. I've got to say there is something wonderful about not having to squash yourself into a regular small tub when you're 9 months pregnant! I stayed in at least until my fingers and toes were wrinkly! Then Chad & I drove down to the Elgin country Store where we had a nice lunch and were the talk of the town --who are they? LOL! Fun! I got my hair trimmed up by the local hairdresser and then we went home and I took a nap! Pretty exciting eh! It was wonderful! We made some supper, watched a little t.v. and hit the sac. Wonderfully uneventful.

Saturday we woke up a tad earlier and Dad & Chad went down to the Elgin country breakfast--LOL! They had quite the massive feed! Mom started her thanksgiving cooking. Pies, turkey, coleslaw, pickles, rolls---gosh I don't even know where to begin. Mostly I just watched, Mom's got a method in the kitchen! When Chad & Dad got home from breakfast they both took a nap, I guess all that eating exhausted them! :) I never see Chad sleep like he does in Elgin, it always makes me a little nervous thinking something is wrong with him or something. He slept for over 2 hours! I think he must play catch up for the rest of the year when we go up there! After supper we went over to April & Trevor's to check out the log cabin they made-it is really really cool, what a ton of work!

Sunday we went in to the Elgin Church for service. It was nice for a different Sunday flavor, but I do love ours! In the afternoon Mom continued her cooking craze and my Uncle Merle came over to visit, I hadn't seen him in quite a while. Adam, Angela & Kaitlyn arrived, then April & Trevor (unfortunatly Trevor got a migrane and was really sick) and we headed down for our Thanksgiving tradition before supper. This involves a little bit of hiking, but nothing was keeping me back from being a part of it, hard to believe that next year Baby B will be nearly 1 and coming along too! Anyway, I think I overdid it a bit because I ached so uncomfortable that evening I could hardly enjoy thanksgiving dinner. I did find out the benefits of heating pads though---ahhhhh, heat! We're bringing that along to labour & delivery.

Monday we got up and played with Kaitlyn, who is such a doll and took our time getting on the road after hot turkey sandwhiches, honestly one of my favorite things about turkey dinner! 5 days away was just what the doctor ordered! We took the longer drive home along the river and stopped off at the Big Potatoe and bought some cookies-- we were hunting or cucumbers. Came home and Chad was so rested he cleaned out the shed! I even came back feeling somewhat close to sanity. Nothing like hiding out in the mountains where cell phones don't work, and there is nothing to do but listen to the quiet to replenish a girls soul!

Baby B's Room

Baby B's Room Complete!

Last night after Chad got off from work we headed up to Houlton to pay on the bill, and pick up the rest of the items we'd purchased for the Baby's nursery. Well actually we were able to pick up those items because the people at the church were so generous at our Baby shower. I was so excited to get it home and set up!

It was 10:00pm by the time we got home, we'd stopped for supper and to get cheepo US of A turkeys too, but we took at it. Well actually I think Chad thought we were just going to do the easy things and not the things that took assembly & drills (well he probably figured we were going to do everything, but was hoping I'd let him go to bed) but of course that was not the case. I did pout a tiny weeny bit (I honestly think he wanted to see it all together too) and we stuck it out till midnight putting the finishing touches on the baby's room.

I LOVE IT!! it is so cute! I will take some pictures later and be sure to post them! It was so weird! as soon as we put the mattress in the crib it was like I suddenly realized we were going to be putting a baby in there! Going to pack the bags for the hospital tonight, just in case Baby B decides to make an early visit, and we're as set as we're going to be!

Playing Aunt Heidi

Well I've now officially graduated on the scale of coolness! LOL! Sharon informed me yesturday that my gorgeous niece Savanna was supposed to be having her nap (but really didn't want one) after playing for quite sometime in her room (keep in mind she's just 2) she came out with a her stuffed rabbit under her shirt. When Sharon asked her what she was doing she said she was "playing Aunt Heidi". LOL! She's 2!!! Anyway, Sharon didn't make a big deal of it or anthing and Savanna carried on "Playing aunt Heidi" for a good bit before she got tired of it I guess. I think that is too cute! Ah if it were only that simple! I wonder if she thinks I have a bunny, or a baby in my belly! Here's for hoping it's a baby! :)

34 weeks pregnant