Tickets purchased

Yesterday our tickets were purchased for our return flight to Haiti, Feb 22nd. I have mixed feelings.

There is a part of me that is excited to return, this time to see the Area Development Project we have worked with all year, to meet the people-finally!-be challenged and changed, another part of me is anxious about leaving my family. Last year it was hard, this year I can't even imagine how I will manage, but by God's strength. Last year I came so close to not returning home to my husband, my precious baby girls, my family and friends... Obviously the likelyhood of something happening again is practically impossible, but the odds were not with it last year either. I trust that God is in this, directing our every step, even when I can't understand, but it is still difficult.

We returned home last year, needing to process and work through the trauma of natural disaster, devesatation and heartbreak, elements of the trip we couldn't have possible imagined. As we prepare for the reality a world away from our understanding, I wonder how I will be changed when I return home this year.